Abandoned Love

I can see you turning off the key
I've been deceived by the clown inside of me.
I thought that he was righteous but he's vain
Oh, something's telling me...
...I wear the ball and chain.

Happiness, as I knew it, is long gone
I asked you for a chance, and you scorned
The glowing moon is rising on the hill
But my heart is tellin' me...
...I love ya still.

I come back to the town from the flaming moon
I see you in the streets, I begin to swoon.
I love to see you dress before the mirror
Won't you let me in your room one time...
...Before I finally disappear?

Everybody's wearing a disguise
To hide what they've got behind their eyes.
But me, I can't cover what I am
I can't pretend my eyes are dry...
...When they are damp.

I was such a fool to believe
That you left me because you were peeved
And because to your tune I couldn't dance
But now I know if I was someone else...
..I'd have gotten a second chance

I can march in the parade of liberty
But as long as I love you I'm not free.
How long must I suffer such abuse
Won't you let me see you smile...
...Before I turn you loose?

I've given up the game, I've got to leave,
The pot of gold is only make-believe.
The treasure can't be found by men who search
Whose gods are dead and whose queens...
...Are in the church.

We sat in an empty theater and we kissed,
I asked ya please to cross me off your list.
My head tells me it's time to make a change
But my heart is telling me...
...I love ya but you're strange.

One more time at midnight, near the wall
Take off your heavy make-up and your shawl.
Won't you descend from the throne, from where you sit?
And let me feel your love one more time...
...Before I abandon it.

You wept into my shoulder once, didn't you?
You were afraid your fear of abandonment might come true
That day is nearing soon, like you thought you knew
You're not afraid of it anymore...
...But I am abandoning you.