Beating

For years you were shielded
From all this stupid misery
So carefully you treaded clear
To avoid this exact drudgery
But then you had to falter
And leave me with this picture unfinished
It’s a cruel world this
Where no slip-up goes unpunished
You idiot!
Do you still have to go on beating?
Is this an experience worth repeating?

I know you never fell in love
You were purposefully tripped into it
But to someone it was a victimless crime
Too bad only you think it’s a whodunit
You idiot!
Do you still have to go on beating?
You were taken by her and you were broken by her
Just get it over with now
Or are you still waiting for something?

I'm afraid of hearing that good bye
Tired of being someone's in-between guy
She never was nor would be mine...
...I know once upon a time I did try
Always is the most meaningless word
In this vast language
Used to fill in gaps,
It’s plugged in like a wedge
You had to go ahead and act
Now look what you've done
Ten thousand ways to die
And you chose my favourite one
Traded my peace for her pain
You had to lend my steam to her train
If in hindsight it all looks presaged
Why then does the effort appear in vain?

And you still want to keep beating?
Without any reason or rhyme
Oh but no one cares about you at all...
Stupid stupid stupid heart of mine!