Remain as I am

...every one of 'em words rang true
And glowed like burning coal...

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Khamosh sa afsana,
Paani se likha hota
Na tumne kaha hota,
Na humne suna hota
Khamosh sa afsana...

You shouldn't have said it. If you had to, you should have written it down. And used water for ink. A story never really penned...untold from your side, unheard from mine.

Dil ki baat na puchho,
Dil toh aata rahega
Dil behekata raha hai,
Dil behekata rahega
Dil ko tumne,
Kuchh samjhaya hota...

Don't fuss too much over a heart, it doesn't have a clue. It's been known to lead people into pickles and it's incorrigible. Perhaps if you had been around though, you might have been able to talk it down.

Sehme se rehte hai,
Jab yeh din dhalta hai
Ek diya bujhta hai,
Ek diya jalta hai
Tumne koi,
Deep jalaaya hota

Admittedly, it gets a little scary after dark. Some lamps do light up here and there, but others keep dimming out. If you were around, may be the lamps would just stay lit...

Kitne saahil dhoondey,
Koi na samne aaya
Jab majdhar mein doobey,
Saahil thaamne aaya
Tumne saahil
Pehle bichhaya hota

I needed a rock to hang on to, but I would even have grasped at a straw. Neither was to be found, though. And just as I was being devoured by the whirlpool, a monolith threw me a rope! It could not have been you; I like to think you'd have reached out much sooner...

Khamosh sa afsana,
Paani se likha hota
Na tumne kaha hota,
Na humne suna hota
Khamosh sa afsana...

If you couldn't let it lie, you really should have just written it down with water. And let it remain a non-story...unsaid, unheard, therefore unhappened.

Happy New Year!

"Sometimes it's not enough to know the meaning of things. Sometimes we have to know what things don't mean as well. Like, what does it mean to not know what the person you love is capable of? Things fall apart, especially all the neat order of rules and laws. The way we look at the world is the way we really are. See it from a fair garden, everything looks cheerful. Climb to a higher plateau and you see plunder and murder. Truth and beauty are in the eye of the beholder. I stopped trying to figure everything out a long time ago.

If I know nothing else, I know at least one thing is true; that the sacred is in the ordinary. They tell you that everything is nonsense. Gravity is nonsense, relationships don't exist, jobs don't exist. Everything is up for grabs and there's no cause for anything. That's what they'd like you to believe. I guess you could say I was pushed downhill, but my fall from grace didn't end at the bottom of those stairs. It went on, and it seemed to go on forever. All of life is a balancing act, and we make choices between extremes. Conformity or freedom. Acceptance or doubt. Humility or ego. We have to make choices. People mistake fact for opinion. The easiest enemy to overcome is an opinionated one. Expect the worst, and you'll get it. That's about all he ever taught me. In jail, there are a lot of guilty guys who are innocent. Outside, there are a lot of innocent guys who are guilty.

All of us in some way are trying to kill time. But when it's all said and done, time, ends up killing us..."